I’ve been thoroughly mulling over the concept of intimacy, in preparation for this post. Not “intimacy” in a relational or even sexual sense – rather, self-intimacy. That raw, private place where we’re at our barest, forced to acknowledge our true motives and desires, where our innermost memories dwell and keep on affecting us, where we can dance with both the light and darkness in our psyche. Self-intimacy as the meter through which a mindful interaction with the world at large can be measured, and as the prerequisite for a successful, Soul-level intimacy with another human being as well.
Self-intimacy is a primal, archaic dimension of being, yet through the knowledge of this vast personal substrate, we can move beyond blind, pre-wired reactions and attain existential balance. Introspection and familiarity with our truth is essential in bringing us back to our own center, and thus, helping us establish a healthier relationships with others and with the environment. And yet, our alienation from this viscerous realm – and, therefore, from the beauty of the depth of conscious relationships – it’s an unquestionable hallmark of our postmodern era. Most of us are disconnected from our sense of intimacy with the Self, and instead engage in suppressing emotions, memories, trauma and unwanted feelings, pushing them out of conscious awareness. We do it to avoid shame, suffering, to cope with the pace set by capitalism and neoliberism (which requires relentless and robotic standards of productivity that are not to be disrupted by existential crises), to preserve the sense of safety provided by our Ego-based delusions. An avoidance that only causes the unacknowledged, unintegrated layers of our being to grow in strength, becoming more compelling, magnetic (while we, in turn, become strangers to ourselves, fragmented, unable to find satisfaction and fulfillment).
This is the realm of Scorpio, Pluto and the 8th House. Having rulership over the primal processes of birth, death and sexuality as well as psychoanalysis, unconscious layers of the mind and complex energetic currencies, Scorpio gets to bottom-line reality through penetrating inquiry of the hidden, innermost realms – a level of depth where the creative, unbridled dynamism of what is untamed constitutes a proper fertilizer for radical processes of creation, destruction and renewal. This is the territory that will be stirred by the New Moon that occurs on October 30, at 5:38 PM UTC (07°43’ Scorpio): operating at such intimate depth, this provocative New Moon can feel almost intrusive, with her enquiring, introspective invite to recoil in our innermost Universe and unpack the inhibited energy that lies there. A New Moon in itself is an energetic doorway that allows us to break ground for new cycles from within, a time for spiritual and emotional reboot.
The energy of a Scorpio New Moon is therefore the equivalent of a shortcut to our core vibration, serving the higher purpose of a soul-driven purification; it’s like a torrential cosmic flush that helps us to sanitize toxic emotional waters and shift parts of our existence that felt blocked. A confidential encounter with the Jungian shadow, and a chance to use the latter as the formless prima materia that can make us whole.
Depending on your level of self-intimacy and self-honesty, you might find this experience unsettling or challenging – even though the trine between the Sun/Moon conjunction and transcendental, compassionate Neptune ensures some degree of ease and support through the process.
The Sun and Moon also make a conjunction to Mercury, signifying that much of the healing and transformation we initiate under this New Moon will be verbalized, put into words, or generally involve speech, thinking patterns, self-talk. Profound conversations with another individual might turn out to be powerful catalysts for our healing and empowerment, allowing us to draw our power back from bad energy investments and get right with our Soul. But our inner monologue will require attention as well: whenever we speak (Mercury), our subconscious (Scorpio) is listening, so this conjunction is also to be interpreted as a clear signal that we need to carefully discern the types of communication, and thought patterns that must be purged/transformed.
Most importantly, using our intellect to tap into our instinctual inner pulse and navigate its tides is key for regaining control on our life, subtracting power to our unconscious drives. Sure, plummeting beneath the surface to explore our personal Hades requires a leap of courage – but there, we might find the most fertile soils where to plant our most treasured seeds of radical, empowering transformation.